I COME FOR THE CAKE….

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This Christmas season is, once again, almost over.

No more increasingly huge piles of packages to deliver.

No more frantic urgency.

No more USPS for a couple of days.

Whew.

I’m glad it’s almost over.

I escaped without any major bruising.

I think that I escaped without picking up a bad case of “Christmas Spirit”, too.

I escaped without picking up a bad case of Christmas Spirit.

That’s not right.

That’s kind of sad.

Now, of course, when you have children, you key off their excitement.

My youngest son (and a recently minted “big brother”) is very aware of the Christmas story and the miracle that happened in a humble surrounding so long ago.

He knows about the manger and the new baby Christ.

It’s fun to see it all through his eyes.

It’s good to be reminded of all the gifts that come at Christmas.

It’s necessary to be reminded of the real gift that comes at Christmas, too.

Sometimes, that’s hard….with all the things we pile on and around Christmas.

I guess that if we don’t keep our priorities “right” (wrong), we don’t meet our sales projections….and we start worrying about things like whether cheap gas is going to hurt or help the economy.

We get distracted by strange things like that.

I get so distracted.

Here’s a blog post by a “friend I’ve never met”…..Rod Perry….who lives in Alaska and who wrote this post a couple of years ago.

I love this post….maybe because my own grandmother was born in a sod house in the Dakotas…maybe “just because” it’s a great post….I don’t know….but here it is again.

Ice Cream and Lemonade

My mother spent her last years here with us near the old Iditarod Trail. But she grew up in a sod house and half dugout on a land claim in New Mexico Territory. She was born at a time when Pancho Villa’s raiding was keeping things lively thereabouts, before the territory became our forty-seventh state.

Among the frontier folk who scratched out a bare living scattered about the arid, sparsely-grassed country were many that were hardly schooled. Once a good little wife and mother walked five rough miles across the plains (then five back home) to borrow from my grandmother some “ingredients.” When questioned what ingredients in particular she sought, the poor dear looked puzzled. She explained that she had flour, salt, baking powder, and everything else called for except the item, “ingredients” she saw mentioned in the recipe.

My mother happened to be in the general store when a little girl came in to pick up an order. “I came to get wipin’ paper. Ma said put it on our bill.” The store keeper, not recognizing which family the girl belonged to, asked, “Little Lady, who is this for?” To which she answered, “All of us.”

Parents on a distant claim sent word around that they would be holding a birthday party for their son. A social event of such rarity drew every kid within walking or riding distance. My mother went, as did three sisters who came as they did each day to school, astride Ol’ Silas, their mule. Upon arrival each guest paid respects to the birthday boy then joined in the festivities honoring him as the center of attention. That is, until a young chap, getting there late, burst through the door. With not so much as a look in the direction of the one whose birthday was the sole reason for the entire gathering, he loudly proclaimed, “I come for ice cream and lemonade!”

Now, looking around during the Christmas season, I see parties, celebrations, plays and performances, going home for the holidays, family, children and friends. I see Santa and traditions, gift giving and benevolence to the needy. Center Jesus in his rightful place and it’s all so rich. But those celebrants who leave out the Savior, never stopping to so much as acknowledge God’s greatest gift as the very reason for the season, well, they are as crudely off the mark as that boorish late-arriving boy at the party on the plains almost a century ago. Leave Jesus out and even the highest and best of the rest is only, “I come for ice cream and lemonade!”

A “Happy Holidays” kind of Christless Christmas season, one that ignores, circumvents, or purposely shuts out both the Christ and the mass (celebration of his birth) might best be summed up using words of the famous trailsman, gold rush dog driver, Old Ben Atwater. “Whagh! Why, it’s all worth no more than a cold half pinch of last years’ bear scat!”

If even that.

Thanks, Rod.

The post was from Rod’s Blog.

Merry Christmas….every one of us.

Don’t forget….this is a birthday party!

 

“Silent Night” Martin Sexton

one less tree

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“Way back when”, we spent our first Christmas in our new old house with a very, very young daughter and no insulation in the rafters.

It was a plan that, in retrospect, wasn’t really all that well thought out.

It was cold.

We went up into the woods behind the house that first year and cut a sad little sapling…..brought it inside…nailed a couple of boards to the base of the tree….put a few decorations on it….and put it up where our loft is now.

It was a pathetic little tree….but it was a good tree.

It was our first Christmas tree in a house that no one should have been living in.

It was camping right by the road.

It was a place that a man doesn’t move his young wife and baby daughter to….no matter how optimistic and naïve he is.

You just don’t set things up to be hard like that if you have much of a plan….unless you have a plan to live out in the country and don’t have much money.

Then you can call “goofy ideas” a “plan”….and just roll with whatever happens.

I think that we must have given our neighbors something to talk about.

Goofy.

Now….things are more comfortable….and we go somewhere else to buy a tree that has a better shape….that’s fuller and isn’t something that we could make fun of.

It’s a real Christmas tree.

We’re surrounded by woods….there’s trees everywhere I look….but there aren’t any that look just right to use for a tree at Christmas.

There aren’t any that look the way a Christmas tree should look.

It’s kind of funny/strange to cut down all these trees, anyway.

The ones we buy aren’t any more meaningful than the scraggly little tree that we had that first year.

They’re just better looking.

The Christmas story that I remember is a pretty humble little story, anyway.

It’s grand….but humble.

A manger! A barn! A bunch of smelly animals! What a way to start a miracle!

There wasn’t anything perfect about that scene….except what happened…at that scene.

We have a nice tree now….and we can dust off our Nativity set if it gets a little dirty.

What we bring to Christmas is really the important thing, anyway, right?

Having a scraggly little tree….or a grand spectacle of a tree….doesn’t really matter if we look at it with the wrong set of eyes.

That must be why the birth of Christ took place in such a humble surrounding.

I don’t think I could relate if it happened in a castle or something.

new locks

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I don’t suspect that things will start to disappear suddenly.

I don’t think that anyone is out to get me…or get my stuff.

I feel pretty safe, most of the time.

But….you hear stories about the things that go away….the calls to the pawn shop trying to track down stolen items….the pain of loss at someone else’s hands.

You hear the stories.

Maybe it’s a good idea to protect yourself….even if it’s only a little.

We bought some padlocks yesterday.

New locks.

New locks to lock it down tight.

New locks that scream “LOOK IN HERE….IF YOU CAN FIGURE OUT A WAY TO GET PAST MEEEEEEEE (!)….THE NEW LOCK!! THIS IS WHERE IT IS!! ALL THE GOOD STUFF IS IN HERE…..WITH ONLY ME….THE NEW LOCK…..STANDING IN YOUR WAY!!”

I don’t think that I’ll sleep any better with a new lock in my life.

I don’t think that Sparrow gives a flip about what stuff stays and what stuff goes.

“What we have” doesn’t register with her.

She only cares about “who we are”.

She lets us sleep some nights.

She doesn’t care about locks.

But, anyway….we have locks now.

It would be a drag to lose the tools I need to do my work.

I’d be PO’d if some meth head stole some of my stuff to buy some drugs.

I would be PO’d if somebody ripped us off.

That’s not going to happen now.

I have locks.

Now, if you pay attention to something called the “law of attraction”, you understand that we attract into our lives the things that we think about.

If we think that people are good….it’s surprising how many good people we run into.

If we think that people are a bunch of cranked up meth head thieves….it’s probably no surprise that the percentage of people like that who we see goes up.

I wonder if I’ll see some sneakers sneaking around my stuff now that I have these new locks?

Maybe.

But, like they say….better safe than sorry.

I’d hate to be sorry about anything.

Love is never having to say you’re sorry.

Did you know that?

“lock & key” Sara Watkins

guitar!! all this guitar in the big, big world

What’s that line in the old “the Band” song “Up on Cripple Creek”? The one where Levon sings something like, “I can’t take the way he sings, but I love to hear him talk”?

This guy is kind of like that….the jury is still out on what I think about his singing….but it’s fun to hear him play the guitar.

Man…there are a lot of talented people in the world. It’s pretty amazing how talented some of these folks are.

I was looking up the phrase “forest home”…trying to find more cabins in the woods….living vicariously…when I came across this guy, Wise Cub.

He’s pretty darn good.

Here’s another one by him….

So many people that I wouldn’t know about if it weren’t for random YouTube discoveries.

Pretty cool.

(A quick post script….this guy’s voice is pretty good, too. OK…I approve. The jury passes judgement and….I approve.)

The band is called “Forebear”….formerly “Wise Cub”….the guitarist and singer is named Scott Goldbaum.

 

the place that no one knows about

Of course, people do know about this tree house.

How else would they come for a visit?

So you build something on public land…and eventually it’s discovered and in danger of being removed….not because it’s ugly….or damaging to the environment….or encroaching on what someone else needs for a livelihood or because it blocks someone else’s “view”….just because….because it’s on public land and you just can’t build something….no matter how beautiful or magical….on land that you don’t own.

You can’t build a secret out in the woods and expect that someone else won’t want to remove it….just because “they can”….just because they “own”….or OWN.

(I’d be kind of perplexed and PO’d if someone built something….no matter how beautiful….and set up residence on land that I owned. I don’t know how I would respond to that….)

There’s something kind of scary and beautiful about being a pirate like that….putting up a hideaway cabin on land that is far from any roads….far from places that people usually go.

There’s something hopeful about building something beautiful that might be destroyed….just because….because no one expects to see something unexpectedly wonderful in woods that are for everyone….and no one.

That’s the kind of thing that kids build in someone else’s tree….and live out a dream where they have no right to be….except that they breathe… and the air surrounds them… and they are citizens of this air that we all share.

I could deal with having a cabin out in the woods….even woods that I didn’t have a deed to.

I could deal with a secret treehouse without a hint of a mortgage.

House pirate.

I could deal with feeling free.

“free” Donavon Frankenreiter

Nate’s Up

 

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I get up so early.

Early, early, early….trying to carve out some quiet time….a time of self-reflection and caffeination….a time when I can sit and, for a moment, nothing is going on around me.

I’m hiding in my own house….silent as… a mouse…hiding….waiting for a sound and relieved when it’s just the noise of my own quiet breathing.

I’m a gatekeeper, too.

When I’m not up and holding my position as sentry outside our bedroom door, people can come in and wake us up.

If, for some reason, I’m still sleeping and enjoying a peaceful morning….and I haven’t assumed the “sentry” position yet, we can be surprised by some extra company.

The bed’s not so wide that we can handle a bunch of additional people.

It’s not restful to add to the mix.

It was so quiet for about 5 minutes this morning.

Beautiful.

And, then…..I heard the slide of the barn doors I put up in the hall….and the padding of little feet in the darkness, and….Nate was in the room and on my lap and the day had begun.

The real day had begun and my quiet alone time evaporated and it was juice and Transformers and everything else we do to stay happy and out of Momma’s room.

Nate’s up.

I’ve done alone before.

I know how to be quiet….and alone.

I value quiet….I chase it now….gently, on bare feet in the darkness of morning, trying to avoid the squeaky tread on the stairs when I go down to the kitchen to make my coffee, never turning on a light because it might wake…..

I’ve been in places where no one would hear the tree falling in the lonely forest.

I’ve been so alone…..and I learned that “alone” is OK, too.

Nate’s up.

My quiet time is finished for the morning.

Five minutes in, my quiet time is gone.

I would not trade the chance to lose my quiet for all the tea in China.

Nate is up.

Quiet is sweet…but there are sweeter things in the world….noisy, early rising, Transformer toy blaring, sitting on my lap while I type….things people.

Good morning, Nate.

We’ll play this “Daddy’s up” game again tomorrow morning.

“quiet” Paul Simon

 

 

 

twenty-one

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Twenty-one years ago, I stood waiting.

I stood waiting at the front of the church….waiting with 3 of my best friends and my father….waiting for my soon-to-be  wife….my friend.

Marrying.

And then, she was with me and we were repeating the vows we’d both memorized and the minister said, “I now pronounce….” and….we were married.

I don’t always do things “right”….but, occasionally, I do things “good”.

This was one of the best “good” things.

Somewhere, in those 21 years, we went from sitting together on top of a round bale, never talking about the future that might lay ahead, totally in the present, enjoying each other’s company….to chasing children around other bales…again, in the present….chasing.

It’s funny how much life twenty-one years can hold.

My cup runneth over.

“Twenty-one” is a good number.

I am thankful for each moment that brought us here together.

“all my life” David Wilcox

 

I CONTACTED YOU AFTER A SERIOUS THOUGHT

Spam

I get a lot of spam.

Email spam.

I get spammed in my emails…..spammed heavy….spammed hard.

I don’t know why.

I’ve never figured it out.

I’ll write them back….ask them not to contact me again….even send my name and address and bank information like they ask for in the hopes that it will appease them and they won’t bother me anymore….but they keep writing….and I keep asking them not to.

Spam is a pain.

The other day, I got a message with this heading…..”I CONTACTED YOU AFTER A SERIOUS THOUGHT”.

That was one message that deserved an answer!

“After a serious thought….”.

I don’t get many messages from people I know that have that much import behind them….but here was a complete stranger….in a foreign country…who was willing to reach out to me after experiencing a “serious thought” that concerned me.

That’s really kind of beautiful, if you think about it.

Someone who lives in a different culture…possibly of a different “race”, even (!)…..who is willing to contact me and help me achieve….something.

Here’s a snippet of the email….

Dear Friend.

After serious thoughts, my decision to contact you personally became
urgent, since I have no grudge against you, other than your Nigerian
partners. I happen to be the Deputy Governor of Central Bank of
Nigeria(CBN) in charge of Operations.

The line that sucked me in was, “….since I have no grudge against you, other than your Nigerian partners.”

I KNEW THAT NIGERIAN THING MIGHT COME BACK TO BITE ME IN THE A**….but this guy was willing to forgive even that!

He held no grudge.

Like I said before….I get a lot of spam.

Most of the messages seem like total scams….but there was something so benevolent about this one that I couldn’t help but respond….

Here’s some more of his message to me….I think you’ll see the honesty and humility that I saw after you read this….

Sometime ago, your partners approached me through a contact who works with
one of the ministries here with a request to assist them conclude a
transfer deal which required programming a transfer on your behalf.

What I gathered, is they wanted to use my position and office to
strategically transfer a sum; which has been supposedly dormant in the CBN
suspense account for quite a while. Our agreement was that I make this
happen and be rewarded with one hundred thousand initial advance payment
and another one hundred thousand when I finally release to your nominated
account. Having successfully programmed the transfer as agreed and your
name approved amongst the list of contractors/recipients/beneficiaries to
be paid for that period, the story changed and instead of standing by our
agreed arrangements, they employed an avoidance tactic and then resorted
to threats. Well, that prompted my decision to immediately delete the
transfer code, but released other payments as listed, excluding yours.

This resulted to several threatening calls which did not scare me though
and then they started making frantic efforts to bribing other officials to
get another approval to the transfer to you, but without success. I
however take 100 percent responsibility for the delay and obstructions,
because of their breach of agreement and trust. If you have doubts as to
this privileged information, then consider what has transpired through the
entire course of your claim process, they continue to ask you to pay one
charge or the other and at the end no results and they continue to tell
you to send another fee with yet no results. In very simple words, I can
only say that they are just wicked. Now if you want us to work
together,these are my conditions:

And….he goes on to tell me how I can get the money…and how he’ll only charge me 20% for helping me.

I AM FREAKING RICH!!! BINGO, BABY…..I’M RICH!!!

It’s pretty amazing that something like this can happen “out of the blue”.

Finally….a sincere spammer from Nigeria.

I waited so long.

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One of my best friends sent me an article about “the end of race”.

The end of race.

Whew……finally.

I get so sick of all this race stuff.

If it’s not me noticing something, it’s me noticing somebody else noticing something, and then it gets me started noticing something….and then they start questioning why I’m noticing something….and then the race is off….and all we can see is that we’re really pretty different after all.

That stinks.

I don’t think we’re any different than the way we act….when we decide we’re pretty different.

In reality….”reality”….I wonder if we aren’t all just a bunch of “spirit wrappers”….angels in waiting….souls with different physical labels and “appearances”….molecules swimming through space at a rapid pace….

Maybe we’re just a collection of electrical impulses (in a body that helps us stand erect) that tell us to smile at each other every once in a while?

Spirit wrappers.

I don’t really know. It’s too easy to adopt this thought that with all the different “wrappers” out there, that we’re really the same stuff inside…..beyond all the regular inside stuff….the intestines….the bladder….the kidneys…..all the stuff inside.

We’re all the same.

There’s no power in “all the same”, though.

There’s no “identity” in “all the same”.

I’m proud to have some Norwegian ancestry.

That’s about as white as you get….pale and white.

I wish that I tanned better.

But put me up against a Swede….or somebody from Denmark….or….I don’t know all the countries with really white people….pale people…..and you couldn’t pick me out of a lineup.

I’m just another guy with a really pale skin wrapper.

In some neighborhoods, if I went in with my wimpy philosophical “guns” blazing, and talked about touchy feelgood thoughts like “spirit wrapper”, I’d be KILLED.

K-I-L-L-E-D.

And that’s just the redneck neighborhoods around here.

“Redneck”?

See?….the labels.

The labels.

Nobody’s neck is red…..not really “red”.

I’m comfortable with the people who are comfortable with me.

Sometimes it takes awhile for us to get to know each other….and that’s not a “race” thing….but when we do, I hope that we’re comfortable with each other.

It makes it easy.

When’s this race stuff going to end?

Can’t we all just get along?

Our time on earth is so short…..we’re wasting it with all this wacky “race stuff”.

We’re wasting our short time here.

Here’s the good article my friend linked to…..

http://www.vox.com/2014/10/10/6943461/race-social-construct-origins-census

and here’s a good song….

“spirit wind” David Wilcox

 

you just don’t watch videos like this if you…

….if you don’t have to.

I think that you start out watching the ones that are specific to your vehicle (regular Cherokee)….and then the ones for the other Jeeps trickle in and you sit and watch them, too.

And it’s the same procedure for all of them.

I watch these YouTube videos like one of them is going to tell me how to get the angels to do the work for me.

I never see that video that tells me how to get the angels to do the work for me, though.

This video is one of the only ones that had a narrator who used the word “uff da” in his narration.

That’s a Norwegian word that you can use when something goes kind of wrong.

It’s a good word to know when you’re doing a job like this.

Something in the Jeep is making a “roaring” sound….so I thought that I’d start with this.

I thought that I’d start with the hubs….and then move on to u-joints….maybe replace the rear end….maybe get new tires….

What else? What else might be “roaring”? What else could I shotgun new parts at?

It might be smarter to have someone who really knows what they’re doing check the car out…..and give me an accurate diagnosis.

That might be a whole lot less time consuming than replacing everything and watching all the YouTube videos.

Watching all the YouTube videos……

It’s entertaining watching all these people do all the work.

They aren’t angels….but they’re entertaining.